My mom, my angel

I miss her so much. It has been 2 years now since I saw her breathed her last. It will forever be one of the most painful experiences of my life… seeing her die.

Home has never been the same without her. She had a way of making her presence known. Nobody can cook like her ever. My mom was a superb cook. I miss hearing her ask what ulam I want. I miss her hamonado, chicken tocino, chopsuey, spaghetti… I miss watching her cook, helping her prepare the ingredients. Even the smell of her cooking…

I miss going home and finding her waiting. I miss telling her everything happening to me. She would be the first one to encourage me to pursue something I wanted to do… besides wanting to see me happy, I guess it was her way of saying sorry for pushing me into this profession. I miss making sumbong about work. I miss hearing her cheer me on. I can just see her face if I told her I want to quit work. She knew everything about me.

I miss hugging her and laughing with her. I miss her childlike glee upon seeing a gift or a pasalubong for her. I miss gossiping with her about people we both know. Or hearing whose birthday it is today. She had this uncanny knack of remembering special occasions.

Today is her 2nd death anniversary, later at exactly 9:30 in the morning. I miss my mom so much. Life will never ever be the same without her to share everything with.

I love you ‘my!

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16 comments

  • My dad also passed away about a year ago and like you, life is not the same without him. Wherever he is, I pray that the Lord takes him in His good graces.

  • hello…

    talagang nakaka miss ang taong mahal mo… kahit ako i miss my mom too and my family kahit nasa Pinas lng sila at nakakausap ko pa…

    take care sis

  • I feel your sadness sis, just hang on there.. isipin mo na lang your mom is in a much happier place.

    tc 🙂

  • i feel your sadness too, sis …
    but i’m so proud of you for being what you are today! i’m sure your mom is still watching over you, your siblings, and your dad. 🙂

    ingat palagi, sis!

  • i feel your sadness too, sis …
    but i’m so proud of you for being what you are today! i’m sure your mom is still watching over you, your siblings, and your dad. 🙂

    ingat palagi, sis!

  • i feel your sadness too, sis …
    but i’m so proud of you for being what you are today! i’m sure your mom is still watching over you, your siblings, and your dad. 🙂

    ingat palagi, sis!

  • i feel your sadness too, sis …
    but i’m so proud of you for being what you are today! i’m sure your mom is still watching over you, your siblings, and your dad. 🙂

    ingat palagi, sis!

  • i feel your sadness too, sis …
    but i’m so proud of you for being what you are today! i’m sure your mom is still watching over you, your siblings, and your dad. 🙂

    ingat palagi, sis!

  • I feel your sadness. Everyone has endured such pain before. I did when I was 10; grandfather passed away and he loved me and my siblings to bits. Till this day, I still miss him naman.

    May your mom rest in peace always.

    Ingats ate!

  • I’m sure your mom is always watching you and she’s happy to see you grow as a strong and loving daughter and sister to your siblings.

  • it must have been very painful. you must have already gotten over it, but still, there’s that raw spot in your heart that’s especially meant for her. will say a little prayer…

  • Aw. I’m so sorry to hear (read?) about your mom. Losing her must have been a terrible experience. I can’t imagine what will happen to me if I lost my mom. She also plays a huge role in my life.

    I pray for strength para sa ‘yo! Although it’s been two years, I’m sure you still long to see her again. And you will. Someday. 🙂

    *hugz*

  • (*nagpahid ng luha… speechless… thinking deep about life… then pats sasha on the back… then hugs her without saying anything… nonverbally conveying that I’m just here whatever happens… then smiles at her… took her hand… and guided her towards the road, as if telling her… Continue the journey… life sucks, but its all worth it… someday we will meet them all again… in God’s time.)

  • Hugs, Sasha. She’s stll with you … only the shell was broken, the pearl that fills it sparkles yet. I know its so much better to have her around to hug. But look at it this way … she won’t grow old, grow withered, languish in old age. Ay, sorry if these are just blandishments.

  • I miz my mom too! I haven’t seen here for months already (in person). We used to chat online with a web cam… and that’s only until it! I came here in Cebu for my job and my sweet old home is an island away… in Negros Oriental!

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  • I can feel your pain, Sasha. Even the thought of losing any of my love ones scares me. But I know they are eternally secure in Christ.