Crossing the bridge…
If I will give a score to My Life using the scale of 1 to 10, 10 being the highest, I will give My Life a 6. In my 29 years here on earth, I think about 15 years were spent Down. Too many problems. 2 deaths in the family…
Don’t get me wrong, He has been good to me, too. With every moment spent Down, I get something out of it so that I can move Up. I became stronger and more resilient. But I developed a bad ‘habit’. I don’t know if you can call that a habit. Cycle perhaps? I get depressed every few months. It just comes. I don’t know what brings it on. I just feel it and misses everyone so much. Sometimes I think I need to see a psychiatrist just to get these all out. I have so many hang ups in life. I asked kuya Vince about a counselor before. But it’s too expensive.
I often wonder what’s at the other end of the bridge. I always think it’s happiness, contentment, pure bliss. I still have to cross it to know for sure.
For the meantime, I need something. I just don’t know what it is 
I am an accountant, a CPA. I'd been working for 10 years as a corporate rat when I decided to quit. I am now working at home as a consultant and full time blogger.
December 13th, 2007 at 1:25 am
me perst din!!haha!
December 13th, 2007 at 1:30 am
i think it happens to everyone,She,monthly…
its just normal i guess,well im not sure about the level of your depression,kasi ako,laging ganyan during my PMS..and its getting worse and longer na,that i can also call a cycle.
we have no satisfaction in life..but i know that you need to spice up yours.you need “love” gurl!!haha! well,seryoso ang topic mo,pinapangiti lang kita kahit groggy na ako sa antok dito.
hayy,naku,after one chapter,may another chapter na naman sa buhay natin,She…pati tuloy ako,affected sa post mo.
hugs and keep your spirit up!
December 13th, 2007 at 5:16 am
i hope maging okay ka lang ulet sis! normal yan kaya wag kang mag-alala pero syempre di ba, wag mo rin masyadong beybihin kasi ikaw rin ang mahihirapan!
pa-hug nga… mwuaaahugggzz! labyu! malapit na ang Pasko, cheer up!!!
December 13th, 2007 at 7:15 am
You know, Sasha? As they say, the grass is greener on the other side. Is it really? Cross the road and find out, and most of the time it’s mostly where the septic tank is. Har har har…just an old joke. Depression comes to us in many ways, and I would say it’s at times normal. Sometimes I feel depressed and I try to retrace my thoughts to find out what the cause is. Usually, it’s something minor…not life threatening and I try to divert my thoughts to something more pleasant.
Confide your inner thoughts to an older friend, an auntie or grandmother. One of them might have an answer for you.
Go see a nice funny movie.
December 13th, 2007 at 8:01 am
sashing,
uyyy wag ka na na tampo sa blag? saken? or kahit kanino…kasi magpapasKO na!!!! hehhheheh…
ay naku sashing ng buhay ko, kulelat ako -bawat aplayan ko ay rejected- impaktong goggle yan! dahil sa kanya kaya nagkaganito blag standing ko mmmmhhhhhfffffttttt….. inis- grrrr… etc etc etc….
o laban ka sa mga himutok na yan? hehehehe… kaya the best is to SMILE!…..
ingats ka lagi!
December 13th, 2007 at 9:24 pm
Sasha, baka carry-over yan ng inis mo sa isang post mo
Hindi naman siguro SAD yan, seasonal affective disorder. Of course, I’m not a doctor pero this usually comes when the weather is cold though I think this would not really happen to people living in a tropical country, hehehe.
Hope everything will be brighter, merrier and hopeful for you in this season of Hope and Love
December 13th, 2007 at 10:01 pm
minsan it happens they are just challenges in life
we have to face things like that kht sad
anyways sis miss u
link-ex??
December 14th, 2007 at 12:47 am
bridge over troubled water ba? i kanta mo na lang sing it baby! heheheh
December 14th, 2007 at 5:24 am
dear She, I have experienced that in the past and you may not know this (I have never told the blog world) I even had suicidal thoughts, few times, it just seemed too much.. but each time i fought back, had I not surrendered my life to Jesus Christ, well…baka nagpupusoy na kami ni taning sa impyerno..
hang on to God’s love and Words..you’ll get by..if u need ears to listen to you..you know where to find me.
love
ate Thess
PS.
6 is good…mine was 2
December 14th, 2007 at 7:42 am
Sash, I know it’s hard to let go but that is the secret for us to keep going in life. I made a motto for myself, this is it, “If people cannot make you happy, make yourself happy.”
December 14th, 2007 at 8:40 am
hay naku ate sash, there really isn’t a perfect life. we have to live with problems and make the most out of the good things. ganun talaga, walang taong pinanganak na walang prob.
ako if I would rate myself, I’ll give myself a score of 2. diko pa natandaan na naging sobrang masaya talaga ako. though, lagi akong masaya with simple things.
sabi nga nila, I’m happy now but I could be happier. so, while crossing the bridge, lets smile kasi for me, there’s no end
good morning
December 14th, 2007 at 11:23 am
hindi pala ako nag iisa ..ako man laging dinadapuan ng depresyon…makapanood nga lang ako ng movies e kahit comedy, dahil siguro may nakikita ako beyond sa pagpapatawa ng mga artista, I mean mas nakikita ko yung sitwasyon ng palabas ayan aatakihin na ko ng depresyon …iba`t ibang porma. masaya sila nagtatawanan tapos eto ako biglang iiyak…baliw lol!
well lahat naman yata tayo kailangan ng counsellor.
I hope nakakayanan mo naman sana yang pag atake ng depresyon.. well syempre …di ka namagbablog kung hindi diba
hope your fine sis
December 16th, 2007 at 6:25 am
Anak, there are many ways to feel content and happy. One is to look what others don;t have that you have or huwag mong tignan yung nasa itaas mo, tumingin ka sa ibaba, mas marami ang salat kesa sa’yo.
Sabi nga nila, count your blessings instead of sheep. Ingat ka.
December 16th, 2007 at 8:34 pm
so serene.
god bless you ate! ^^
December 21st, 2007 at 10:53 pm
sometimes, we don’t need expensive psychiatrists or counselors… but a listening heart, those who are willing to journey with us but just being there, not giving advices or trying to manipulate our way of thinking and feeling….