I will not be visiting your blogs most especially this coming weekend. We are all going to Pangasinan and will be staying there for 3 days. Family will be back by Monday morning. There is a bit of an emergency at the province because of my dad’s uncle suffering a series of heart attacks. This is the uncle who provided my parents shelter when they eloped some 30 years ago. This is the same uncle who makes sure we get to enjoy our vacations when we’re there in Pangasinan. So you can just imagine our desire to be with him in this time of need.

And why am I telling you all now when it won’t be until Friday?

I need to do tons of tasks which due dates will fall on the weekend.

Blessed weekend everyone!

In Abundance

I often forget the endless blessings that come from Him. Di ba nga they said that if you pray, why worry? But of course, easier said than done especially with my position.

I must admit that the recent Google slap that happened across the 4 corners of the www hit me hard. I monetize my blogs, you see, and getting a -2 on my pageranks was really a big blow to me. I earn a lot with my akoni site (Ate Ghee, pramis pag-uwi mo talaga sa WB tayo, u know*wink*… sagot ko! hahahah) that was a PR4 before and after the Google slap, it went down to PR2. Same with my blogspot site than went down 1 PR. I worried a lot that I might not earn as much as before.

I forgot that I am praying nga pala. And so many people are praying for me including my lovable monk kuya Dom Lawrence. Binatukan ako ni Lord kanina lang, just a few minutes ago kasi ang arte ko raw! Hehehe… I received a notification from Sponsored Reviews about an offer for this site…


*Click nyo na lang yung pic para makita nyo how much ang offer sa akin hehehehe…

I was laughing but teary-eyed at the same time. Sobra mambatok si Lord ano? Hehehe…

I forgot that around 2nd month of this blog, I started earning big bucks from this one na. Even without a pagerank pa. Bonus na lang that I got a PR2 for this one already. I kept on focusing on my other blogs and the negative things that happened instead of focusing my energy more on this one and the positive things that I gained ever since I started monetizing my blogs.

You’re probably wondering why I am so keen, and obviously, addicted to making money online? Well, I plan to buy a car by December. Kaya ba ng kita ko? Hmm… we’ll see. So far I have bought a lot already from my income. A sofa set, antique mirror, a TV rack, some closets, a bed for my dad, a crib for Hazel, new mattresses for us, 6 cellphones for the whole family, digicam, and not to mention countless shoppings done since I received my first batch of payments. Doesn’t sound like much for some people but believe me, I will never earn this much from my 8-5 job.

Anyway, my point is, I need not worry because I know He will provide. And another thing, I should tell you, my friends, that I seldom visit your blogs because aside from being busy making money, I am still having problems with my internet connection. It’s a long story but to make it short, PLDT refuses to grant me a DSL line because of my neighbors, Bayantel is slower than a turtle, Globe does not cover our area and there is nothing else for me to do but wait until either PLDT listens to my appeals or Bayantel finally gets its act together. For now, tiyaga muna sa connection ko talaga. And hingi na rin ako ng pasensya sa inyo kasi nga bihira na ako makadalaw.

I will make another post for some link love for those people who kept on visiting me kahit pa di ako masyadong makadalaw sa kanila 🙂

Always remember…

When God closes a door, He opens a window.

Happy Wednesday to everyone! Mwah!

What would you do?

What will you do if you have a best friend, already married, and is having marital problems? He insists in making you a pillar of strength even if you are in doubt whether you want to take on that role. Whenever you talk to him, he opens up and pours out his weaknesses and how he ought to just kill himself because he cannot act like a father should. And you are all tired of negating whatever harmful things he thinks he ought to do.

What will you do?

I am a good friend. Not because I am kind and all. It’s just that I believe in karma, that’s why. I am a good friend because I want to have good friends in return. And I can say that I do have some really good friends. Especially those from high school… and two from college.

I do not want to be a bad friend, most especially to a really close bud. But I am tired of everything. Don’t get me wrong, I love my best buds. The other one does not bother me with marital problems yet. He’s getting married soon. While the other one…

I just realized that maybe because I am used to seeing men like my dad, I am uncomfortable with the kind of setup I currently have with best bud no. 2. I don’t like it at all. I don’t like to always remind him to be strong for the kids, to not give up on the wife, to just hold on to the family and not harm himself. I particularly hate stopping him from leaving his family. I really hate it! It’s a sign of weakness and I hate it that a father can think of abandoning his family for whatever reason.

Now I am resorting to going invisible whenever he’s online. I hardly reply to his text messages.

And this afternoon, I cringed at a message I received from him. He’s asking if I am mad at him and if so, he does not want it to happen because I am the only one left that he can lean on.

I really don’t like it at all.

If you are in my position, what would you do?

Mood swings, weight problems

Sobrang wala ako sa mood lately talaga. Wala sa mood magbasa, magsulat, mag-isip sobra. Ang tanging pinagkakaabalahan ko lang talaga ay manood ng Prison Break (and drool over Wentworth Miller!) with my siblings every night. Yan lang. Of course I need to do some sponsored posts kaya naman tignan nyo, 1 week akong walang post na maayos. Puro sponsored lang.

Yesterday, fiesta sa amin. Instead na makisaya, natulog ako half the time. Paano ba naman, bukod sa puyat ako, sama pa ng pakiramdam ko. Maayos na ako ngayon. Pero yesterday, wala, bagsak talaga.

And the reason for all these annoying mood swings… being overweight! I think my weight is affecting my moods na. Nakakahiya mang aminin, I gained back the weight I lost almost a year ago 🙁 Syempre kasalanan ko talaga. I eat when I get stressed out. Before July 2007, sobrang stressed out ako lagi. Daming issues sa buhay ko, both sa work at sa personal, kaya imagine nyo na lang how often and how much I ate that time. Hay… naiisip ko lang nakakalungkot na hehehe…

Ang mahirap kasi sa akin, I take refuge in the high that food brings. Kapag may problema, ganyan ako. But when I’m happy naman, even if I don’t eat that much okay lang. Kaya naman ngayon, eto, I’m suffering from my lack of discipline where food is concerned. Bad talaga 🙁 I am not sure naman if I can go on a diet na tulad ng dati na puro dahon lang. But I will try to eat less na. Napapagalitan na ako ng mga sisters ko hehe

So iyon lang naman. Kaya naman I am the queen of katamaran for the past couple of weeks now. Pabugsu-bugso ang kasipagan ko.

I need to go on a diet na! I need to lose weight! Somebody help me! Hehehe…

Thank you to everyone who keep on visiting.
Saka dun sa mga nagbigay sa akin ng gifts… Ipo-post ko separately, girls 🙂
And pasensya na talaga wala kayong makitang matino dito sa ngayon. It will all change pretty soon 🙂

Have a great week ahead everyone!

My mom, my angel

I miss her so much. It has been 2 years now since I saw her breathed her last. It will forever be one of the most painful experiences of my life… seeing her die.

Home has never been the same without her. She had a way of making her presence known. Nobody can cook like her ever. My mom was a superb cook. I miss hearing her ask what ulam I want. I miss her hamonado, chicken tocino, chopsuey, spaghetti… I miss watching her cook, helping her prepare the ingredients. Even the smell of her cooking…

I miss going home and finding her waiting. I miss telling her everything happening to me. She would be the first one to encourage me to pursue something I wanted to do… besides wanting to see me happy, I guess it was her way of saying sorry for pushing me into this profession. I miss making sumbong about work. I miss hearing her cheer me on. I can just see her face if I told her I want to quit work. She knew everything about me.

I miss hugging her and laughing with her. I miss her childlike glee upon seeing a gift or a pasalubong for her. I miss gossiping with her about people we both know. Or hearing whose birthday it is today. She had this uncanny knack of remembering special occasions.

Today is her 2nd death anniversary, later at exactly 9:30 in the morning. I miss my mom so much. Life will never ever be the same without her to share everything with.

I love you ‘my!

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September 17 is her day…

Rare that you can find a friend like her. Shen is a “palitaw”… sometimes she’s there, sometimes she’s not. What is amazing with this friend of mine is that she has a knack for calling/texting when you feel like talking to/seeing her; when you need her. I remember there was a time when we hadn’t seen each other for a year or so. No calls, text messages, emails… this was the time that she had a “helmet” on and was crazy in love with a no-good guy. I kept on thinking that I want to see her but I didn’t know how to reach her because she dropped out of circulation. When out of nowhere, she called me up and we hooked up again.

It is already 15 years that we’ve been friends. She became my friend back in second year high school. It was not always a smooth ride for us. There was a time that a common friend tried to break our friendship. I am glad that I did not listen to her.

She was there during the good and bad times. She was there when I badly needed someone who wouldn’t judge me. She was there when I just needed mind-numbing monologues from someone. She has done so many things and the one I will never forget is when she was with me during that tumultuous TWA time. I will not grow tired of saying thank you for that time, pare! It was difficult to look back and see myself alone during that time. It would’ve been truly unbearable without you.

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