A Chronicler’s Life

How would you feel if after a failed pregnancy months ago, you’ll find out that you are pregnant again? I was ecstatic when I found out about it. So happy that if only I could jump and dance because of so much joy I would. Finally after months of mourning for our lost child, our baby came back and here to stay this time. I know God will not take our child away anymore. I am enjoying the pains of motherhood. Throwing-up from wee hours in the morning until night, peeing every hour, not being able to eat rice or drink water because I can’t stand it. Good thing there’s Gatorade. Eating or simply smelling chocolates that I used to love so much make me nauseous. Having green mangoes, guavas or fresh cucumbers with vinegar as dip for dessert. Sleepless nights, being overly emotional like crying over a somewhat touching commercial on TV. And of course gaining pounds week after week. I’m telling you its really hard but I’m not complaining. I would like to experience these and so much more. I would like to go through what my own mother has gone through when I was still in her womb. I would like to feel every pain and joy, every tear and smile, every little inch of being a mother. I’m having my daily dose of vitamins, nutritious food and my regular check-ups. And it’s one of those check-ups that my gynecologist has found out that I’ve got an acute case of urinary infection posing a threat on the life of my child. Not again Lord I said silently. My gynecologist advised me to rest completely for two weeks and to drink antibiotics and medicines that would make my baby stronger. That was last December 19. I went back to my doctor last December 28 and she said that my infection was gone! I was so happy! But not quite because I’m still not sure how much it affected my unborn child. I still have to wait for two more agonizing weeks before we could take a look at our little angel via ultrasound. I hope and pray with all my might that God will grant the only desire of my heart and that is to have a healthy and normal child in my arms soon. If others want to be successful in their own chosen fields, I on the other hand has just one simple wish…to be a mom.

My pumpkin at 5 weeks and 5 days

My lil angel at 8 weeks and 1 day

My darling baby at 10 weeks and 1 day

Please pray for the safety of my baby. May God bless you all! O:-)