Month: October 2007

What would you do?

Life in general

What will you do if you have a best friend, already married, and is having marital problems? He insists in making you a pillar of strength even if you are in doubt whether you want to take on that role. Whenever you talk to him, he opens up and pours out his weaknesses and how he ought to just kill himself because he cannot act like a father should. And you are all tired of negating whatever harmful things he thinks he ought to do.

What will you do?

I am a good friend. Not because I am kind and all. It’s just that I believe in karma, that’s why. I am a good friend because I want to have good friends in return. And I can say that I do have some really good friends. Especially those from high school… and two from college.

I do not want to be a bad friend, most especially to a really close bud. But I am tired of everything. Don’t get me wrong, I love my best buds. The other one does not bother me with marital problems yet. He’s getting married soon. While the other one…

I just realized that maybe because I am used to seeing men like my dad, I am uncomfortable with the kind of setup I currently have with best bud no. 2. I don’t like it at all. I don’t like to always remind him to be strong for the kids, to not give up on the wife, to just hold on to the family and not harm himself. I particularly hate stopping him from leaving his family. I really hate it! It’s a sign of weakness and I hate it that a father can think of abandoning his family for whatever reason.

Now I am resorting to going invisible whenever he’s online. I hardly reply to his text messages.

And this afternoon, I cringed at a message I received from him. He’s asking if I am mad at him and if so, he does not want it to happen because I am the only one left that he can lean on.

I really don’t like it at all.

If you are in my position, what would you do?

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Mood swings, weight problems

Health and medicine

Sobrang wala ako sa mood lately talaga. Wala sa mood magbasa, magsulat, mag-isip sobra. Ang tanging pinagkakaabalahan ko lang talaga ay manood ng Prison Break (and drool over Wentworth Miller!) with my siblings every night. Yan lang. Of course I need to do some sponsored posts kaya naman tignan nyo, 1 week akong walang post na maayos. Puro sponsored lang.

Yesterday, fiesta sa amin. Instead na makisaya, natulog ako half the time. Paano ba naman, bukod sa puyat ako, sama pa ng pakiramdam ko. Maayos na ako ngayon. Pero yesterday, wala, bagsak talaga.

And the reason for all these annoying mood swings… being overweight! I think my weight is affecting my moods na. Nakakahiya mang aminin, I gained back the weight I lost almost a year ago :( Syempre kasalanan ko talaga. I eat when I get stressed out. Before July 2007, sobrang stressed out ako lagi. Daming issues sa buhay ko, both sa work at sa personal, kaya imagine nyo na lang how often and how much I ate that time. Hay… naiisip ko lang nakakalungkot na hehehe…

Ang mahirap kasi sa akin, I take refuge in the high that food brings. Kapag may problema, ganyan ako. But when I’m happy naman, even if I don’t eat that much okay lang. Kaya naman ngayon, eto, I’m suffering from my lack of discipline where food is concerned. Bad talaga :( I am not sure naman if I can go on a diet na tulad ng dati na puro dahon lang. But I will try to eat less na. Napapagalitan na ako ng mga sisters ko hehe

So iyon lang naman. Kaya naman I am the queen of katamaran for the past couple of weeks now. Pabugsu-bugso ang kasipagan ko.

I need to go on a diet na! I need to lose weight! Somebody help me! Hehehe…

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Have a great week ahead everyone!

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