I have so many ideas running in my mind I don’t know which one to focus on first. Ha-ha!

Anyway, I am writing this post to just let this frustration out of my system. I need to vent out a bit so that after I let this all out, I can go back to normal. Or at least a semblance of what’s normal to me.

I used to be very active in the blogging world. Mostly, I bloghop, make friends, rub elbows with the blog ‘authorities’, and be on a first-name basis with majority of active bloggers like me. Things changed when my focus shifted to creating other blogs. I became a bit of a recluse. I chose a handful of bloggers I remained in contact with. In short, I stupidly ‘burned bridges’!

At first, I didn’t mind. I was earning big bucks. I had my handful of close blogger-friends who truly matter to me and with whom I really would like to be friends with offline. But later on, specifically two to three years later, I realized just how stupid that move I made cutting off communication with the ‘authorities’. I could have been a better blogger had I remain friends with them. I could still be active in the blogging world and probably become a relevant one. Better yet, I could have been in on so many things happening in and around the blogosphere! There’s so many things happening I doubt if I can still ‘penetrate’ the circle I used to belong to.

Change can sometimes be good, and bad. In my case, it’s a 50-50 thing. I earned a lot from my self-isolation and at the same time I isolated myself too much I lost so many potential income sources.

I become really sad when I think about it.

There are days when I feel like quitting. I’ve been doing the same thing day in, day out for the past eight years now and there are days when it is taking its toll on me. I am a passionate person. When I no longer feel the passion, expect me to become stuck in a funk and will find it really hard to get out of it.

I am currently in a funk. I’ve been trying to get out of it and there are times in the past few weeks I was able to but it’s not enough to totally pull me out of it. In all honesty, I don’t know what will make me get back my lost mojo. I am dying to do a ‘marathon’ again but the drive’s just not there.

Those writing bouts were courtesy of a good blogger-friend of mine who’s been inspiring me to continue writing and not lose hope. I am grateful!

I just really wish the passion will spark once again and that my mojo will come back in full force.

There are days when I want to do more to become a better blogger…
I want to become more active in blogging forums and groups.
I want to interact more with other bloggers to gain more knowledge and know-how.
I want to visit other blogs and leave comments.
I want to create better blogs and be that blogger I’ve always wanted to be known for.

But you know, blogging has become a source of income for me. I know that I don’t have all the time in the world to do all the things I mentioned so I am stuck with what little I can actually do. I am not making excuses for being a lame blogger at times but what I am trying to say here is that I am doing the best I can given the situation I am in.

One of these days, when I don’t have much on my plate, I will be able to do the things I’ve wanted to do as a blogger. One of these days…