Truth is there are days when I am no longer happy. I struggle and I feel terrible and the restlessness starts creeping in. I am always in a funk and couldn’t get out of it. I can come up with a thousand or so excuses not to do stuff and after spending hours not doing anything, the guilt will stay with me and would make me feel so lame about myself.
I am no longer happy but I think it’s the worry of the flow of income that’s making me feel this way.
Or is it?
Maybe this is a funk within a funk or a phase I have to get through. I am not so sure anymore and I think the steps I am taking will determine what I really feel about everything in my life right now.
This blogger will be saying goodbye to working at home and will most likely say hi once again to the corporate world!
I’ve been working at home for the past six years already and it is scary to think that I will be saying bye-bye to the comforts of a home-office. But I need to. I am sure that other bloggers like me who made a living off it full time (in my case I also made consultancy a full time work on the side), are now thinking of other ways to earn what with the declining income from blogging these days. I am also down to a single client with my consultancy sideline so it’s really time to go back to the rat race I was once in.
It would have been ideal for me to NOT go back to the corporate world and just open a business of my own. Maybe concentrate on something else. But I still have some things to settle financially before I can declare total financial freedom!
Oh well, I have sent my CV to different companies. I am just waiting for a call and I’ll be off to join the race again.
I don’t know if you noticed it but there are weird updates going on in Alexa. I don’t know why all of a sudden all my blogs’ Alexa ranks are going down. I know that not everyone is having the same problems. I know that not all blogs are affected, especially those with good and regular traffic. But most of my blogs which are not getting much traffic got huge leaps of downward rank updates!
Are you experiencing the same thing?
In the past regular updates in your blog can bring a positive update in Alexa. But these days, even if you write 10 fresh entries a day you will be shocked to see your Alexa still going down.
What the hell is going on?!?
Ramgen Revilla, 22, son of former senator Ramon Revilla, Jr. and half-brother of actor and now Senator Bong Revilla, was killed in his own home. He was stabbed 11 times and shot by two gunmen wearing bonnets. His ex-girlfriend who was with him that time was also shot in the head but survived the incident albeit still in critical condition in the hospital. It was tragic made even more so by reports that his very own siblings plotted his murder by hiring gunmen and paying them 200,000 pesos (roughly US$4,800) in return. His younger brother Ramon Joseph and younger sister Ramona are being implicated in the murder by the gunman himself and by Ram’s assistant who was there at the scene when the crime took place.
It was reported that differences in financial matters was the primary motive in the killing. According to police report, Ram and his 8 other siblings receive 1 million pesos monthly allowance from former senator Revilla as child support. Ram would receive the money and was the one tasked to handle it on behalf of his younger siblings. It was said that Ram was not good in handling their finances and his siblings detested him for that.
Money is the root of evil. I was reminded of that quote when I heard of this news. Money and the fact that more often than not we let it govern our lives. I cannot fathom how a sibling can kill his sibling just because of money. But it has happened in the past and I know it will happen again. Blinded by the need for money, some people can really commit a crime. It’s just sad that money can divide and destroy a family when it never should.
Do you use a pseudonym when blogging? What are the advantages of anonymous blogging?
When I started out in blogging, I debated with myself whether to use my real name or adopt a name that others would know me by. I opted to adopt a pseudonym and came up with the name Sasha. I got it from a toy collection that a younger cousin had. I figured going anonymous would give me some semblance of privacy that even if I rant about someone I could do it freely.
So I started introducing myself as Sasha in my blogs. It gave me the freedom I needed to just write about whatever I felt like writing without the need to consider if someone would recognize the person I was talking about. Anonymous blogging is liberating!
And then I started gaining blogger-friends. At first only a handful knew the real me. But as I got attached to a lot more bloggers, I slowly ‘unmasked’ myself. Now more bloggers know that Sasha is just an adopted name of mine. They also know me by my real name. I’ve already met in person some bloggers who know the real me. Some are already personal friends of mine that I meet up with regularly.
So let me ask the same: are you using your real name or are you using a psuedonym in blogging?
I haven’t been feeling 100% the past couple of weeks now. There’s always something coming up that would intrude with my blogging time. First it was an almost two-week bout with the flu, with cough and colds alongside. After that, it’s the little girl’s turn to be really sick that we had to bring her to her pedia twice for medication. Then my aunt got hospitalized, the next-door neighbor passed away, my dad’s older brother suffered a heart attack and we had to be there to help out. There’s always something coming up.
I must admit that if I just wanted I could have still written something while attending to important family matters. But there’s just no inspiration to draw on. Plus my mind was scattered and elsewhere I couldn’t pin it down to collect my thoughts to write a decent entry. And when I know I couldn’t do that, I don’t force myself. It will just show and I hate putting out half-baked entries.
Anyhow, I am slowly getting out of the funk I am still in. I am hoping to be back 100% by this weekend when I finally caught up with all the tasks I left scattered around.